I started the idea in 2019 from my southern California apartment. At the time I was working for a medical device sales company for a year and a half at the time and as the weeks then months were passing me by at what seemed to be a very fast pace, I was quickly realizing that this was not the life for me.
I made my way to los Angeles from Scottsdale, Arziona in 2015 to pursue a fashion career with an upcoming fast fashion brand. I definitely felt like I found my calling. I was downtown LA, working with some awesome people in a work environment that invites all the good things you want in a job especially out of college. Office games, work colleagues that quickly became good friends, ability to express yourself in many different ways and best of all being a part of a team that was making clothes for people just like me.
After a couple years passed, I started realizing the chances to grow just weren’t really there so we both decided to move on from one another. I chased the money and went to the medical device sales industry.
Fast forward it’s 2019 and I’m beginning to really miss the fashion world and the environment that surrounded me. I wasn’t able to dress anyway I wanted to or be the person who I thought I was in my everyday cycle. In my 1-bedroom apartment in Brentwood I started to draw a lot. Silhouettes of clothing I hoped to make one day, graphics I thought would look cool on a t shirt and most importantly hats that I knew I wanted but could never quite find. This quickly turned into an Instagram account that I would post inspiring photos on. Cars, women, houses, vacations, vintage settings.. all people and emotions I wanted to have in my life one day. After posting for a few months with the push from my closest friends and family I decided to go out on a limb to tell people the idea I had in my head for the last 6 months. I got some courage and asked my friends to follow and support this dream of mine.
Llovesick
That was what I was calling it. It had taken me months and months to figure out a name. One that I liked as well as truly encapsulating me and this dream. I felt it was hard to talk about the name because It would create some vulnerability. Now I invite it. I needed this to be more than a name, I needed it to feel like me. Letters will always be the same, no matter what they spell - it’s the words they create that harness the truth, emotion and ownership or who and what we are.
We are all made of flesh and blood - but some of us feel more deeply than others, some of us think way beyond the ends of the earth, and some of us yearn for a purpose grander than our wildest dreams - to me, that’s llovesick. The loose term lovesick is to love something so much that you feel sick to your stomach when you can’t grasp it. I felt this way with a lot of things in my life, relationships, my collegiate sports career and a life career I was so desperately searching for. I was starting to see a shift in my thought process that I could really go for this and make it my life. Then, right there, started llovesick – creating and designing pieces that I wanted in my own wardrobe with a combination of knowing that my style wasn’t owned by me, It’s us. All of us. We are more alike than we are different, and llovesick proves that we are all a little lovesick to find who and what we truly are
For me, It’s time to really commit myself to this dream.
